The importance of detaching temporarily from a series of work.

I sit at my desk finally re-scanning a series I shot about a month ago. I had been planning it for months and in my mind the project had grown and grown. Till I actually made the work, when it become a reality, I saw it as much, much deeper and meaningful on multiple levels than I ever could have before. But it was overwhelming.

How do I write about all of this? I asked myself. What about a title? I kinda sat on it a week, then got really busy curating and producing my first solo show. The project became but a thought like a reminder, would enter my mind once or twice every couple of days. But I was detached. It was like trying to ask a girl out and so much time passed you don’t know if you can ever follow through. I would set goals and see the reminder pop up on my phone and computer screen. Like hitting the snooze  I would opt to be reminded later. Emotionally I also became  from the work. Like I was over it in a way. However I still yearned for that connection. That passionate connection to the work when I was shooting it and planning it out. 

I’m sure you are curious about the work, it’s not published yet and I am taking all the time I need to make sure it’s mindfully introduced. Sorry ;).

So today. Today I sit at my desk. Re-scanning the images. Looking at them like I had forgotten them. What I wonderful thing this is. To love, to let go, then to find love once again. So much that the title I was struggling with so much immediately became apparent. That things were clear and I had a fresh mind to access this work again. I can now move forward with gratitude. Gratitude I have the opportunities I have to even create as I do.

So my message really is about giving the work time. Letting it grow as it should. Not pushing it out to the world without a a firm grounding. I love making new work but some of it requires attention way past the actual image itself. Time away from it can be just what is needed.

The Muse, Intamacy and the Nude.

I can imagine my next relationship being nothing short of a Muse in my
work. I am usually a tad frustrated with nude work I shoot. Not enough
time, not enough knowing each other, all that awkwardness and searching
for a comfort zone….. It works in it’s own way but lacks deep
intimacy. For that, it’s fine. There is a purpose, however is leaves me
with an empty feeling that makes me do more work, only to end up in an
endless cycle of emptiness.

There of course is so much one might presume here. Don’t. 


The Internet and Instant Artist Fakery.

My over all thoughts and perceptions over the past couple of years accumulated.

Please stop making collodion show off videos and really bad. inaccurate tutorials. We all know how long you’ve been shooting collodion. It’s not about the process. Collodion does not make you and instant artist. If you had nothing inside to offer before you have nothing to offer now. Head shots are mostly just head shots no matter what kind of camera or technique.

Some poeple have been actively shooting collodion for ten to twenty years. Some stay more that craftsman, some add a narrative and take it further. I have to really respect both. I hope I am shooting for years to come and can actually offer some thing to others. I also work hard to bring worth while imagery to the viewer and don’t try to push my coolness on anyone. The instant asshole art fartist does not impress me one bit.

However, everyone has a starting point. It’s just that if one thinks all they need is the tools and that’s good enough they are missing an entire universe of possibility.

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